Dansday
I keep making the same mistake. It’s not in my code, not in my project management, but in something far more fundamental. When the deadlines pile up and the work gets intense, I let the most important things slip. I get so caught up in the rush that I forget to pray, to perform Sholat. And every time it happens, a deep sense of shame washes over me. It’s a feeling of having failed myself in the most basic way.
But in those moments of distraction and regret, my mind always finds its way back to one person. She has become my anchor. She is the reason I push forward, the reason I try to be a better man. Everything I build, every late night I work, it’s all with her in my thoughts. She is the person I still love, no matter what has passed between us or how much distance separates us now.
We don’t talk anymore, but I still watch her from afar, hoping she is happy and well. She is a constant presence in my prayers, the one person I ask for guidance and blessings for. She represents a future I am striving to build, a place of peace and stability. My greatest wish is to end this long journey and finally find a sense of peace with her, in a place we can call home.